I just wish to be 19 years old and beutifiull so that i can start living my own life from there,and be controlled of my own life.I am litterly on the edge of just giving up hope for life.I just want my own life be beutifiull and find the one i love and dont have worries about school.Ughhhh it doesn't matter probably not going to become true but there's a0lways a slight chance that why i try but every time i try over again and nothing this time is probably the same as always...