I wish that tuition assignments and freelance ***** can come flowing in with abundance. I wish that my weekdays are all packed like sardines where I rush from one home to another, shuttling to and fro with much excitement brimming over in my heart. I wish to excel as a renowned and brilliant tutor with loads of inspiration , love and happiness wherever I go. I wish to escape from this current situation with emptiness and terror filling my life. There is something “evil” and “unseen” at home, sucking out every fibre of my bejng, sucking away every thread of energy I possess. There is something that causes my mum to be blind to my efforts out in and achievements received, in the social and emotional development of my life. She doesn’t see the love and hope dancing about wildly in my eyes. I need serious help. Help us. Help me. Help our family of dying people. I did try to lift myself from hopelessness into a better life but there is an unseen dark force blocking me.