I wish I could get out of these dark days, out of my negative emotions and depression. I wish I could be what I want, can raise a dog, a cat and a rabbit living happily in a small apartment, studying and working later on smoothly, enough to eat enough to wear. Now I have lost everything, I want the old peaceful days back, I want a new phone, new computer, new ipad, apple pencil to study and work. I also want peace to swing idols, if possible I want my other half to be them.I am really tired.