I wish to be a cisgender man, instead of a Transgender man. (Or at least look and be treated as one instead of an "confused women" which I am not and never will be. To look like a cisgender man, to have the average height of a cisgender man my age or to be at least 5 foot 8 inches in height. To be treated like a cisgender man. To be referred to by he/him and they/them pronouns. No more dysphoria, no more binders, no more packets and no more asking for acceptance. I know the "Cisgender" part is a bit unrealistic but in my Hope's and dreams it is what I see. I wish to at least have to not wait long to see a GIC or wait long for surgery or hormones. I believe this to happen regardless of becoming "cisgender" or not as I am not denying who I am anymore.I am a man who was born with into unfortunate circumstances. And now I have the courage and willpower to not be in denial or try to bargain with myself. Internal transphobia is gone and I'm willing to have courage. Thank you for reading