I wish a time would come for Shah and I to be together as a couple. I wish until such a time, I would be able to let go of my non-platonic feelings for him completely, and keep them away and they wouldn’t cause me pain. I wish they would only be allowed to resurface at a time when a relationship between us as more than friends would be possible, when he has moved on from the girl he’s with and chooses me. I wish such a time would come.