Part 2: It went on like that for so long, a lot of wasted time, but now, the God of the universe is shining light into my life. Revealing to me the flaws of what I believed and sometimes still do, and he gave me his word, and because of his great love...he's tearing those lies down and giving me what I (and every other human) craves...love, clarity, acceptance, purpose, healing of all the disappointments/pain in my life and freedom from what those chains had on me. Praise God!! And instead of escaping reality and getting lost in my fantasies of a favorite anime or t.v. show, instead of just coping with my problems I am gaining victory over them through Jesus Christ. I am going through other people's wishes on this website, and I understand wanting to have everything you want now....exactly how you want it...trust me I do...even to the point of obsessing over it.