I've spent the last year void of social connections and new experiences. The one thing keeping me going was the hope of returning to a normal college experience where I can finally meet new people and grow as a person. I've already dealt twice with devastating blow of finding out I have spend four more months than I hoped in this state of loneliness and depression, and I don't know if I can handle it a third time if it turns out that, despite the vaccine distribution and what the government is saying is hope for a safer summer, my school not offering enough in person classes this fall to warrant me going back down south and the more sensible decision being for me to spend yet another semester completely online, void of laughter, romance, or progress. So please if any god, destiny, or higher power can hear me, please forgive me for not believing in you and help me return to a life of hope.