I wish to permanently transform into a giant ***** and forever be a giant ***** and be completely brainwashed as my brain contorts and shrinks in a ***** brain and become a giant venomous ***** with no possible way of ever being a human and can never regain memories or personality of my human self and stay mentally and physically a giant venomous ***** and be extremely venomous as a ***** and for it to physically and mentally be impossible to reverse the transformation once I’m a ***** and live the rest of my life as a giant venomous *****