I wish that I wake up one morning, with my past altered by the creator so that I have the Big sister(s)/big brother(s) I need and that they helped me heal by bonding with me and helped me stop blaming myself for what I couldn't control and that they never stop loving me as their brother and that they help me love and forgive my parents in secret. And that the creator of the universe reads my heart and mind to know the rest of this wish which I am too lazy to type.